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My Story

Let me tell you a little about myself. I grew up in Dallas, Texas. My father was the associate pastor of two megachurches in the area, and my mother was the pastor’s secretary.
I guess that made me a “preacher’s kid.” Sadly, I found my worth in performance. It felt nice to be envied by other families. Many said they wanted to be just like us. We looked like the perfect Christian family

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Unfortunately, all of that “people pleasing” had a cost. For many years, I internalized all the anger and unforgiveness I had toward my family because of unresolved issues. 
We were stuck in an unhealthy family system that became toxic.

Sick of It All

In 2008, I became dangerously thin. Nothing I ate would digest properly. Over a short period, I lost thirty pounds. Many tests were done. The final diagnosis was Crohn’s disease. After another round of tests, the doctors wanted to take out my colon.

I would have to have a bag attached to the outside of my body for the rest of my life, an ileostomy. The doctor informed me it would be irreversible because of the extensive damage.

At this point, I decided I could no longer handle being a part of my family of origin.

I had stuffed all my emotions over the last forty years and could no longer control how I felt. I knew I had to get away to heal mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. In 2009, my husband, children, and I left my family of origin.

I became estranged. We tried family counseling with my parents, but it only made it worse. How does a family in ministry for thirty years break apart? It happens more than you think. For seven years, I had no contact with my family of origin or most of my extended family. My kids lost cousins, grandparents, aunts, and uncles. It was embarrassing and hard to explain. I hated the situation but didn’t know how to fix it. 

Leaving the Family

Leaving the family was difficult, but we felt it was necessary then. It was the right decision, as my colon started to heal within the first year. During that time, God took me, my husband, and my kids, on the journey of a lifetime. I learned I did not have to be perfect. God loved me, broken and imperfect.

Being estranged turned out to be lonely and embarrassing. It was a shame-filled secret that was hard to explain. After many years away, my husband and I felt God calling us back to my family. So many bridges had been burned that I thought returning was impossible.

Since I couldn’t speak to my father, I prayed for God to talk to him in a dream. I fasted on a Tuesday and Wednesday (January 2017), and my father called two days later–Friday. It had been seven years.

And the reason he called…God spoke to him in a dream.

It’s pretty miraculous after seven years of no talking! This was not the only miracle. Seven other miracles happened over exactly one year, including remission from Crohn’s disease. (I tell about all of them in my book.) All I can say is that there is no explanation for this other than God. Not many people leave and return to their family of origin once they have walked away. There is too much damage done.

It wasn’t easy for any of us to swallow our pride. It took a lot of courage on all sides. Of course, we would not have reconciled without the main ingredient-forgiveness. It has been the key to everything. Our family is a testament to what God can do when there is no human way across a broken bridge. If He can do it for us, He can do it for you.

Most of all, I invite you to pray about your family situation. Ask God to show you where you may need to draw some boundaries. Perhaps you need to fast to get a breakthrough. Family conflict is often a generational stronghold that is not easily broken.

I realize some of you may not be able to return to a toxic relationship, but God does require forgiveness. My book goes into great detail about how to forgive no matter what has happened. God can work, whatever the situation, if you allow Him complete access to your life. All things are possible when He takes charge.

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